Jun 29, 2011

What the Wednesday!

Yesterday
During my run,
An antelope ran across the path I was running
It wasn't 10 feet away from me
And it was running FAST
Holy adrenaline rush
I just imagined myself 
Impailed by the antlers
*shiver*




Jarom really wants me to learn
  How to cut his hair
I'm not so sure it's a good idea
Anyone cut hair?
Any tips?





The almond milk I made yesterday
Was delicious
I just added a dash of salt, vanilla and honey
I think I'll make it that way from now on
Have you ever tried almond milk?
It's like dessert on cereal or granola
Try it
I like to tell Jarom that I "milked the almonds" today
I crack myself up




I bought 8 dozen tulip bulbs
From Thanksgiving Point
For $20
If they have any left, you should get some too
I can't wait for Spring!




Jarom and I had a blast on our anniversary
We did a photo scavenger hunt
Jarom had to walk someone across the street
Just as we got to the crosswalk, a nun happened to be standing behind us
She was so sweet
And allowed Jarom to walk her across the street
I die everytime I think about it
Well, that and the free yodeling concert in the park
(pictures forthcoming)



Each week, when I sit down to write
'What the Wedesday!'
I think I won't be able to come up with enough thoughts
But I always do
Interesting




I love
Fiji bottled water
Jarom thinks it's because of the pretty label
But I swear it tastes better than the rest




Going to see Cars 2 today
Anyone seen it?
It's Pixar, so it's gotta be good, right?
My kids are excited
I'm calling the movie theater
to see if I can bring my own popcorn in for Hazel
Gotta love being the exception to the rule


Have a SUNNY Wednesday!
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Jun 28, 2011

Hazel's Allergy Journey - Part 3

This is the good stuff. I'm going to give you my very favorite websites, recipes and advice now.

Support

If you haven't noticed, I'm a huge advocate of reaching out for help. I promise you that I would still be a sobbing heap in the corner had I never contacted UFAN and gotten in touch with the events and group meetings.  If you are in Utah, visit the UFAN website as quickly as you can.  If you are in another state, there is a way to find an allergy support group near you.  You can find it by visiting the FAAN website.  FAAN is the national network. 

UFAN
FAAN
Kids on the Move (early intervention really helped Hazel's development)

Some other great resources for parents of children with food allergies:

Allergy Moms
Allergic Living
Kids With Food Allergies
Cybele Pascal Blog

Recipes

You'll have to get used to cooking things from scratch.  There are two reasons this is important.  First, you'll always know exactly what's in the food you're serving and second, there is a shortage of allergy free (processed) foods in the regular grocery stores.

Cybele Pascal has written cookbooks and is one of the best allergy cookbook authors.  Check out her books here.

I make these chocolate cupcakes and freeze them for special occasions for Hazel to eat whenever I know there will be cake.  If you substitute rice or potato flour they can even be gluten free!

Here are some other recipe websites that are not necessarily allergy free but are easy to substitute or leave out ingredients that are allergens:

Delightful Delicacies
Totally Healthy Recipes
Green Smoothie Girl

Medical Bracelet

If the allergies are bad enough to lead to an anaphylactic reaction, I recommend getting a medical bracelet to identify your child and his/her allergies.  Here is a sample of what Hazel's says and some of the companies we've used and like.

Front:
Hazel Becar

Back:
Allergies to:  Tree Nuts
Milk, Eggs, Meat
Use EPI, call 911
EoE, Asthma
my cell number

Fiddledee ID's
Petite Baubles

Other Stuff

This book is adorable and I plan to use it as a read-aloud in my preschool when Hazel is in class to explain a little bit about her allergies.  It's a rhyming story with the cutest illustrations.  Hazel requests it as her bedtime story at least twice a week. 

This is a great article to send to friends and family.

A great allergy free/gluten free bakery in Salt Lake City.

I do a lot of shopping at Whole Foods and Good Earth.

Neocate
Eosinophilic Esophagitis

Doctors

To find a BOARD CERTIFIED food allergist in your area, use this website.

Dr. Hendershot (our doctor)
Dr. Walker (another great allergist)
Dr. Broadbent (we've heard good things about her)

Products I never leave home without:

Epipen
Sanitizing Wipes
Enjoy Life Foods
Peanut Free Planet
Benadryl
Vanicream lotion (we buy it at Walgreens.  It's great for eczema.)


I hope this helps.  I plan on adding links as I find other helpful products/informaiton/services.  If you want to contact me directly, feel free to email me at ashleybecar(at)yahoo(dot)com.  Good luck!
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Jun 27, 2011

Hazel's Allergy Journey - Part 2

I briefly mentioned in my first post about going to the Utah Food Allergy Conference on Saturday.  Jarom and I had a previous obligation and didn't make it to the classes and breakout sessions but we made it to the final speaker and the Q&A panel.  It was fabulous and I wish I had been able to attend the whole thing.  I am so happy that we made it to see Gina Clowes' presentation.  It was genious.  It was as if she stood up there and told my story exactly. 

Gina Clowes is the founder of AllergyMoms.com.  She has a son who was diagnosed with over a dozen food allergies.  Her website is a fantastic resource for parents of kids with food allergies.

To avoid confusion and to give credit where it's due, Gina's presentation will be in black and I'll highlight my thoughts in orange.  I talked to her after her presentation and asked if I could post about it on my blog and she gave her blessing. 

Her presentation was called "The Allergy Bomb: Dealing with a Devastating Diagnosis"

She began by telling her story and the day her son was diagnosed.  "Hives, eczema, vomiting, diarrhea" were some words I related to as I listened to her speak.  She remembers thinking of his future birthdays (something else I did too!) without cake.  She said that nothing prepares you for the news as you try to imagine your new normal.

Then she showed a slide with an illustration of Martha Beck's Cycle of Change I related it to the greif process and saw myself in each "square" as she spoke about how we cope with the news that our life is about to change.  I don't think this cycle relates only to those with a child with severe food allergies.  I think it relates to any parent with a child with special needs.

I'll try my best to illustrate Gina's explanation of the four squares of change.  I saw myself in each square and remembered how I felt when I was there. 

Square 1:  Death and Rebirth -  I don't know what's going on and that's okay

Gina suggests creating a Food Allergy Action Plan.  Make a written plan if there is a reaction.  Be comfortable with an Epi-pen and know exactly when and how to use it.  Find safe foods and recipes.  Reach out for support.  Learn to read food labels.  Know that your child is safe enough.  Look for the good in people.  Know that some don't see food allergies as real.  Awareness is spreading.

I'll never forget that day sitting in the doctor's office and later the car ride home trying to think about what Hazel's life would be like in the next 5, 10, 20 years.  I wondered (as people who first hear about her allergies do) what in the world she would eat??!!  I carefully read the instructions on the Epi-pen box.  I didn't think to write a Food Allergy Action Plan.  I am happy to report that I only return to this square after a reaction or anytime we experience a "new" situation.  I'm able to live my life in a level slightly less than panic most of the time.  But it took a while.  I remember being in a daze for several weeks afterward.  

Square 2:  Dreaming and Scheming -  There are no rules and that's okay

At this point in the cycle of change, you do whatever works for you.  Gina suggests that you think outside the box.  Think about different scenarios and what you will do.  Pour over cookbooks, support websites, etc.  Find help.  

This square is a little abstract and I think that's because it's different for everyone.  In this square, I tried to help Hazel eat normal things.  I found recipes for vegan waffles, pizza, cake and ice cream.  I found the green smoothie girl and realized I could make a nutritious smoothie each morning and get her lots of iron, fiber and calcium.  I decided to change our family's diet and include more Hazel-friendly snacks and meals.  

Square 3:  The Hero's Saga - This is harder than I thought and that's okay.

This is the stage where the hard work starts.  This is where you really think about it.  You clean out your kitchen and add more allergy-friendly items.  You figure out how to cook.  You create a 504 plan for school which is challenging.  You search for a good preschool or elementary school.   You educate those around you.  It's hard!!  It's scary!!  Gina illustrated with the analogy that every kid is climbing a mountain.  Those with allergies just have a little bit more in their backpack but when they get to the top, they have more strength.  We need to see them as dealing with it.  They are strong. 

I think this is still the stage where I am.  I feel like I am constantly educating people around me.  I am always looking for recipes.  I have cleaned out my kitchen and home and feel like it's a pretty safe place for Hazel.  I fond a medical ID bracelet.  I make her doctor appointments.  I lobbied on capitol hill for change that would help families with EoE.  I am working hard to make sure Hazel is always safe.  I plan, I research, I tell her story at least once a day.  I am trying to see her as dealing with it instead of suffering from it.  She IS strong.

Square 4:  The Promised Land - Everything is always changing and that's okay

This takes time.  Nobody tells you that being a parent of a child with food allergies is a new part-time job with no pay.  This square is where you feel settled in.  Along the way, there will be situations (going to school, on a trip, play dates, nursery, after a recent reaction, etc) that come up and take you back to square 1.  That's okay. 

I don't think I'm here yet.  I think sometimes I bring my toes right up to the line of the "promised land" before I head back to square 1, 2 or 3.  I think about sending Hazel to school and I know it will be a challenge for me.  I guess I'll have to cross that bridge when I get there.  I still have 3 glorious years at home with her.  Traveling with Hazel this year brought me a lot closer to this place.  It went so well, I know it's possible for us to live an almost normal life.  I think I just have to remember that to her, this is normal. 

Gina went on to give her advice for coping.  It was all wonderful and I'll try my best to convey it as eloquently as she did.  

Grieve - Give yourself time/space to grieve. It's okay.
Emotional Support - Find someone in a good place and walk with them.
Lifting up the Covers - It's okay to feel jealous of a kid eating something your child can't.
Practical Help - Get help when you need it.  Do what you need to do.  Cleaning lady (I wish!), Eat on paper plates, etc.
Bag, Better, Barter - Food Allergy Action Plan, bag stuff that doesn't work.
Healthy Coping - Take care of YOURSELF!  Be empowered.  Do fun things.  Balance.

She ended by explaining that they don't see it the way we do.  To them, it is normal. 

I think everyone does these things in their own way.  I feel like now that we're in a pretty comfortable place with Hazel's allergies that I'm able to take more time for myself.  I leave to go running and do Zumba.  I try to take care of my body.  I try to take care of my family.  I have reached out for support from other families and I take advantage of the UFAN activities when I can.  


I loved this presentation so much.  I think it's good to identify where I am in the cycle.  I also think it's good to know that even though you might feel like you were thrown under a bus - it gets better.  You'll advance to each stage with more confidence and knowledge.  I'm amazed at how much I've learned in the short time since Hazel's diagnosis.  My life is different, but in a very good way.


I hope this helps you feel like you are not alone.  


Next Up:  Hazel's Allergy Journey - Part 3 - My best tips, tricks, recipes and advice






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Jun 26, 2011

Hazel's Allergy Journey - Part 1

*******I’m going to preface this by saying this is going to be a LENGTHY post and for most of you readers, it will be boring.  I promise I’m not offended if you skip over it.  Especially since I’ve already written most of this here and there on this blog.  For others of you coming here for the first time, you'll see yourself or your child in these words.  Hazel's story is the story of many many families.  Now it’s all in one spot.  I plan to add to this as Hazel grows.  This journey is far from over.*******

I’ve had a number of people seeking out my blog for information about food allergies in the past few weeks. I thought having this information in one spot would help make it easier to read about our journey with Hazel and food allergies and where we are now.  I still love talking to people through email and on the phone, I love it actually.  I've been where you are.  I thought this would help explain where I’m coming from.   I’ll link to this post on my sidebar to make it easy for someone coming to my blog for the first time.  I’ll post our brief (well, brief according to me) experiences with Hazel and some of the things I took the long way to learn as well as some of my favorite resources and links.  I’ll do this in a series of posts to break it up a little bit. 

I was inspired by the inaugural Utah Food Allergy Conference I attended today.  Another fabulous event put on by UFAN.  I only made it to the last speaker and the panel discussion but I was inspired!

Okay, here’s the early part of our journey.

I’ll start with Hazel’s symptoms.  Around 2 days of life, Hazel experienced an unexplained eye infection.  At the time, it was brushed off as conjunctivitis and we were given some ointment and sent on our way. At 4 weeks old, she broke out into severe eczema that never went away.  It was especially bad on her scalp, hands and feet.  About this same time, she began profusely vomiting after every meal.  We were assured it was normal and that maybe she had some reflux.  I began having some serious doubts and tried to deny my gut feeling that something was seriously wrong with her.  She also experienced severe bouts of diarrhea and at 4 months old would scratch her skin until it bled no matter how short I clipped her nails.  I put socks on her hands and she wore hats every day as she had scabs and bleeding all over her face.  She started having what I called “spasms” in her esophagus after a few months of the vomiting and diarrhea.  It would sound as if her throat were swallowing over and over again and she would gasp for breath.  It was scary!  She also had droopy, red, swollen eyes and strangers would always comment that she must be “sick” or “tired”.  In addition to these, she experienced a strange insensitivy to pain, baldness, little weight gain, runny nose and lethargy.
Over these first 9 months of her life, I tried several remedies for her skin and vomiting to little success.  I seemingly tried every cream, lotion, ointment and bath on google.  I nursed her and tried eliminating diary from my diet which seemed to work for about a week, even clearing up her eczema for a day or two before it returned twice as bad a week later. 

Her 9-month routine checkup was where everything changed.  Jarom and I went to the appointment armed with google articles and asked for an allergy blood test be performed.  We both were horrified to learn that her weight had not increased since her 4-month checkup and had only increased by a pound from her 2-month checkup.  Failure to thrive.  I was told that I would need to discontinue breastfeeding immediately and supplement her diet with formula and return once a week for a weight check.  I was given some samples of a “hypoallergenic” formula.  We went straight to the hospital for the allergy test before hurrying home to attend to her weight issue.  Jarom went back to work and I made her a bottle.  She was hungry and sucked down about 6 ounces of formula.  I immediately noticed hives forming on her cheeks.  I took the bottle out of her mouth and the hives were spreading quickly down her chest and on her arms and legs.  I was terrified and called the doctors office and Jarom.  The nurse told me to give her some benadryl and get her in the car as quickly as I could and rush her to the ER or back to the doctor’s office (whichever was closest).  I put her in her seat and had one hand on the steering wheel as I drove and one hand on her mouth to make sure she was breathing.  I finally arrived at the doctor’s and they were ready for us, showing us to a room where they hooked her up to cords and monitors.  At this point, her little body was completely swollen and she had begun gasping for air.  They administered a shot of epinephrine along with some steroids for her lungs.  Anaphylactic Shock.  Jarom met me there and we both sat in a stupor.  I was told to continue nursing her and to come back after we got the results of the allergy test.

Fast forward to the next week.  We had gotten the results from the hospital which was a list of foods and some numbers.  It made no rhyme or reason and we hoped an allergist would help.  We met with an allergist who didn’t help much.  He gave us two good tips that we were thankful for but it turned out he wasn’t a board certified FOOD allergist, which apparently helps if you have a daughter who was recently near the end of her life after consuming a dairy/soy based formula.  Anyway.  The two good tips were Neocate and support group.  Neocate is an amino acid based formula used by babies, children and adults who are unable to eat enough regular food to sustain life.  We were given some samples and told that it was expensive.  We were given a prescription for an epi-pen and told never to be without this life-saving device.  We were also given a huge list of foods that Hazel was allergic to:  Milk, Eggs, Wheat, Soy, Corn, Peanuts and Tree Nuts.  I sat defeated in the office with visions of her birthday without cake and ice cream, Summers without ice cream, holidays without French toast and strawberry waffles and her wedding without a beautifully decorated cake.  I was devastated.

On our way home from this appointment, I pulled out my phone and looked for a food allergy support group.  I found a number for Michelle Fogg, president of UFAN.  I called and tearfully spoke to her and tried to make sense of Hazel’s diagnosis.  She told me that it gets better.  She said I should get used to cooking things from scratch.  She gave me information about meetings and an upcoming group meeting with Dr. Richard Hendershot. 

We acquired Neocate and learned it was, indeed, expensive.  We had lots of help from dear family and friends who heard our story and helped us in our darkest time.  We will forever be thankful to those who helped our sweet Hazel by providing her with the life-sustaining formula.  It was all she consumed for about a year of her life.  She began to thrive.

After attending the group meeting with Dr. Hendershot, we quickly made an appointment with him and have been grateful for his knowledge and expertise in the area of food allergies. 

She also met with a Gastroenterologist who performed a scope and biopsy after her 1st birthday and confirmed the diagnosis of Eosinophilic Esophagitis.  It’s basically an allergic throat.  In Hazel’s case, she has a very hard time swallowing meats and starchy carbohydrates.  There’s more to it, but suffice it to say that her case is mild in comparison to other kids her age.  Most kids with severe EoE are tube fed and don’t eat any solid foods.  Ever.

Hazel continued to thrive.  Within a few weeks of starting Neocate, Hazel’s hair grew.  Her skin cleared up, her eyes sparkled, she stopped vomiting, her diapers were consistent and less, umm, messy.  With the help of Kids on the Move, she crawled and walked within two months.  She became happy and talkative.  She was truly a different baby.  I still tear up when I think about the drastic changes that occurred in that few short months after her diagnosis.  Words like ‘miracle’ come to mind. 

Since that time, we’ve ruled out her wheat, soy, peanuts and corn allergies.  But added beef, pork and most meats.  So her current allergy list is: Milk, egg, meat and tree nuts (except almonds).

We've had a few major reactions since her first experience with an allergic reaction.  When she was close to a year, she got into Cannon's sippy cup of milk.  She splashed in a puddle on the kitchen floor and rubbed her eyes which caused them to swell shut and she had hives all over her face and chest.  Around 18 months, we fed her a sandwich we thought had no cheese only to find that there was some shredded cheese under the lettuce.  Her lips started to swell but we got her some benadryl as quickly as we could and she returned to normal.  Then at around 22 months, I made her a taco that had cashew in it.  This reaction was much more instant and turned out to be anaphylactic.  We rushed her to the ER and she was given a steroid treatment along with several doses of Zyrtec and Benadryl.  Luckily, she was fine after a few hours.  There are a few more smaller reactions but these are the ones that stick out in my memory.  It's easy to blame myself each time she has a reaction but it's also a good reminder that her life is precious and that her allergies are real and serious. 

Hazel continues to thrive and gain weight. We have weaned her off of Neocate, which is our latest mountain of success!  She drinks almond and rice milk regularly.  I make a batch of almond milk every 2-3 days (it’s cheaper!).  She is at an average weight and is progressing developmentally, socially, and cognitively.  I am so proud of this girl.

Next Up:  Hazel's Allergy Journey - Part 2 (coping with the life-changing diagnosis)
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Jun 24, 2011

Remember When...

Dear Jarom,

7 years ago today, we became a family.  I love you more today than I ever imagined I could then.

Remember when...

I was 20 minutes late to the temple and when I walked in, your eyes were wide when you saw me.  You were so nervous and thought I changed my mind.  I laugh every time I think about it and remember the combination of nerves and relief on your face.  Sorry about that.

We forgot the key to our apartment and had to go back to the reception and get it.  Walk. Of. Shame.

On our honeymoon, we rented a scooter and got lost on our way to "La Boufadora" and my bum hurt really bad.  La Boufadora was overrated.  

The first meal I made you when we got home from the honeymoon was spaghetti.  It took me 2 hours to make.  We ate by candlelight.

We found our apartment 2 days before the wedding.  The day we moved in, we were talking about how lucky we were to find it and how it was so close to my school and how it was such a good deal.  Then the train drove by.  We looked outside and it was directly outside our window.  And drove by several times a night.  It was loud.  We laughed about that a lot.

We were so poor those first few years.  Our date nights were usually spent at home making smoothies and watching French movies from the BYU library.

You spent a month making the entertainment center for our house.  I sanded and stained it.  It was hard work and ended up being an eyesore.  Too bad we were both embarrassed of it.

You would make fun of the way I opened my mouth when I was putting on my makeup.

Our first fight was about how to mop the floor.

You got stuck on the roof putting up the Christmas lights.  I came home to a fire truck parked outside our house.  I had a heart attack until I realized you had called them for help getting down since the ladder fell.  My parents got you a toy fire truck for Christmas that year.

We were horrible at returning movies.

I helped you decorate your classroom for the first day of school.

We would poke each other and whisper all through church.

But, oh, we loved our Sunbeams.  It was the best calling we ever had.  The boys would climb all over you and I would tell you to be quiet in Sharing Time.  The girls always wanted to sit on by me.

We had lemonade and brownies at least once a day.

You called me "little" and would compare hands and legs.

I would bring you Sunday dinner when you were working as a security guard at the temple.  We would have picnics on the lawn or in the car. 

We went to the "hippie convention" for my birthday.

You helped me with homework.

You would laugh when I cried at movies, commercials and songs.

Your Raider's memorabilia slowly got moved further and further outside and now occupy the garage.

You bought me a little black vanity so I could put on my makeup and do my hair sitting down.

Our closet was overtaken by my vast shoe collection.

You had 3 pairs of shoes.  Church.  School.  Date Night.

We moved into our house.  In two truck loads.

I just thought you'd enjoy a little blast from the past during that first year or two.  Some things have changed but two thing will always remain the same.  You make me laugh.  And.  I love you.  SO much. 


Love,

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Jun 22, 2011

What the Wednesday!

Both of my kids still nap
every day
at the same time
It's both amazing and annoying
I feel like I have to be home by noon everyday
and we can't leave again until after 3
But, it sure doesn't give me much of an excuse
not to get things done




While we were in Park City last week
We went to Whole Foods every day
at least twice
It's my happy place
They have these vegan chocolate chip cookies
In the bakery
They are AH MAY ZING!
The last day, my MIL and I went early and bought 8 huge cookies
They were gone by 6:00 p.m.
She said they were "the best cookies she's ever had"




Runners are interesting.




Our garden is growing like crazy
It's so exciting!
I've never had a successful garden
But it looks like that's about to change
While we were on vacation
Jarom decided to change our sprinklers to water the garden a little more
We got back and there are
MUSHROOMS
Growing all over the place
That's what I get 
For being a fugus hater!




Potty training started for Hazel this week
So far, the difference between boys and girls
is that boys are easier
Hazel threw a tantrum
Like flailing, screaming and crying
Because her underpants had a horse on them
Clearly this was unacceptable
And warrented high-pitched shrieking
Heaven help me




My brother is in Texas for the Summer
Installing security systems
He calls a couple times a week
I miss him




 The Bachelorette
Is like a train wreck this season
I can't stop watching
Bentley needs to get a life
He's gross




Wanna see something weird
Check out man-babies
I know, right?




Hazel hit her terrible two's
When will the screaming end?

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Jun 21, 2011

Ragnar Wasatch Back Relay


The Team

11 girls. One guy.  Two vans.  30 hours 21 minutes.  No sleep.  Lots of running.  Lots of laughing.  A little puking.  Put it all together.  And you've got Canned Heat, baby!




The Course


192 miles from Logan to Park City, UT.  I had about 16 miles to run split into three stretches.  My first leg was 3.4 miles.  Leg number 2 was 7 miles.  Leg number 3 was 6 miles.  I knew I had my work cut out for me.  For sure.
All smiles just before my first leg.  That butt girl (background) was in front of me the whole way.  Lovely.
The hand-off

Of course, I had to get my nails all ready for the big event.  It says "canned heat" on my fingers.  My sister painted on some flames. 

1st Leg

My first leg was great.  It was 3.4 miles which I knew I could do easily.  I took a little longer than I hoped to finish, but I felt pretty good afterward.  It was hot and my mouth was dry but It was a nice little run

2nd Leg

My second leg had me worried from the start.  After I signed up for the team, it was changed from 6 miles to 7 miles.  It started around midnight and was longer than I'd ever run before.  But it was at night and was mostly downhill so I surprised myself by finishing the whole thing and feeling great!  I remember at about 5 miles thinking I felt like I had barely run a mile.  It was an amazing feeling and I cried a little bit because I finished it and ran the whole thing!  I knew it was a stretch for me, but I did it!  I blasted my music and watched the silhouette of the mountains in the moonlight and the miles just flew by.  So cool!
During my 3rd leg.  Obviously, there is very little pep in my step.  :)  Almost done!

3rd Leg

My last leg was hard.  Jarom pulled up to our van just before I started.  He was there to cheer me on!  I knew going in that this would be the biggest test of all.  After going all night with maybe an hour of interrupted sleep and feeling like my stomach was in knots, I was exhausted and emotional.  I've run 6 miles one time before about 2 weeks before the race but it was a flat run.  This 6 miles was grueling.  It was a steady incline and started as the sun started blaring.  My legs felt like lead and my gait slowed with each mile.  I hit about 2 miles in and the thought of having to run 4 more miles got to me.  I had a little bit of a panic attack when one of my team members, Mandi, asked if I was okay.  I told her I wasn't sure if I could finish.  She stayed with me a while and calmed me down.  I was embarrassed to have to walk in front of Jarom and my kids but I walk/ran for the next 2 miles and then she switched off with our driver, Kim.  She walked/ran with me for a bit and we saw the sign that said a mile to go and I started running again albeit slowly, but I ran that last mile.  We got to the quarter mile point and there was this mother of a hill at the very end that I would have been happy to walk up but my stubbornness got the best of me and I charged up it (again, as much of a charge as I had left in me).  I made it up that hill!  I hit the honey buckets and puked then felt a huge sense of relief wash over me.  I had done it!  All the hard work and training had paid off and I was done!


Looking Back

There are not words to describe what I learned and how I felt as I spent time with these amazing team members.  They're all seasoned runners yet were completely supportive and accepting of a first-timer like me.  I met cool people.  I saw funny things.  I laughed my head off.  I learned a lot about myself.  Mostly that I can do hard things.  I am anxiously looking forward to next year (although during that last leg I swore I'd never run again!).  It's addicting.  It's a challenge.  I want to do it and do it better.  I want to do more.  I can't stop thinking about it and talking about it.  So, I signed up for a half marathon in September.  I know I can do this.  It will definitely be hard - at least I'll get to sleep the night before!  I can't wait!

Another huge THANK YOU to my awesome team!  I had a blast and you were all so great!  The company could not be beat.  Go Canned Heat!


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Jun 16, 2011

Four

"This arm is four, this arm is four and both of my legs are four, too!  All of me is four!!"    
  -Cannon


Cannon is four today.  This boy who makes me crazy half the time.  I also don't know what I would do without him.

Sometimes I think he's too much like me.  He gets frustrated easily and gets hurt doing things he shouldn't.  When I see him acting this way, it makes me feel so guilty for being the one who shows him how to handle situations.  I wish he had patience like his dad.  But I see some of my better traits in him too.  I try to be kind and considerate most of the time and I think he has that desire as well.  He truly loves his little sister.  He isn't always the nicest but he has an obvious attachment to her.  That is one thing that I'm grateful for.  He lets her play with his toys and snuggles her when they watch movies.  He tells people not to give her food and is a fantastic big brother.  I always wanted a big brother like him. 

Anyway.

So, he's four.  He made me a mommy.  I love him endlessly. 

And one quick story before I go.  So we decorate their rooms during the night before their birthday, right?  Well, last night Cannon was talking about it.  He was so excited and asking if he was going to wake up in a birthday room.  I sent him to bed hoping he'd go to sleep quickly so we could decorate and go to bed.  Jarom and I were both super tired after unpacking from our almost-two-week trip.  I went in to check on him about every half hour and make sure he was asleep and he was not.  Each time I went in starting around 9pm, he would turn and look at me and say something cute like "tomorrow I'm going to be four!" or "Am I four yet?"  This continued until about 11pm when sleep finally overcame his excitement.  I'm glad Jarom and I were able to stay up that late and decorate.  What a great kid!

We celebrated with a little trip to the Thanksgiving Point Dinosaur Museum with two of his best buddies.  Pizza, vegan cupcakes, and later some swimming and presents.  Hooray for FOUR!


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Jun 15, 2011

What the Wednesday!

I apologize for the lack of What the Wednesday posting last week.  I'm sure your life was depending on it and for that, I am truly sorry.  My family was on a little San Diego adventure that I'm excited to share with you.  But for now, I'll entertain you with my thoroughly random thoughts.




The Green Smoothie Girl posted about me
on her blog
I'm pretty much famous now
But, seriously, I love her
If you watch the video
Please know how nervous I was



 My kids love swimming
I think we've gone every day 
For the last 2 weeks




Is this week
I'm part terrified and part super excited
Pray for me
Thankyouverymuch




Margherita pizza 
is my new food obsession
It's so simple
So delicious




 Speaking of food
 Know what bugs me?
Mushrooms
They are not a vegatable!
Mushrooms are fungus
When I ask for a side of "roasted vegetables" 
at a restaurant
And they bring you me heaping plate of roasted mushrooms
with a little bit of squash mixed in
It makes me want to scream
MUSHROOMS ARE NASTY
If I wanted them I would ask for a side of
"Roasted fungus"
But I didn't 
And I won't
Because they are gross




Sorry about that
But it had to be said




I've had the same nail polish
On my fingers
For over three weeks
I'm dying to paint them
This is unnacceptable




Jarom's pet peeve
Is when people us "so"
as quantifying adjective
as in
How hungry are you?
SO hungry
I do it all the time
I'm so fired
Or, Jarom needs a new pet peeve




I love my bed




Have a sunny Wednesday!
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Jun 4, 2011

NOTW

This is OPI Mermaid Tears from the Pirates collection. It's a dusty bluish green. It reminds me of the ocean. I like it but I think I like Stranger Tides better. I think it would be a cool combo to wear Stranger Tides on fingers with Mermaid Tears on toes. But that's just me. What do you think?




Jun 2, 2011

Two


She's two.  Today.  We celebrated with her first night in her big girl bed.  We decorated her room while she was sleeping.  I think she was disoriented when she woke up.  But she danced around her room and pulled the balloons down and got upset with the tape still stuck to her bedpost.  Why are my kids such clean freaks?  And then I made her some pancakes.  We plan to party all day. 


Every time one of my kids have a birthday, I ask the same question.  How did this happen?  I could have sworn she was just a tiny baby.  I can still remember her newborn smell (no, not THAT newborn smell), her tiny hands, her quiet little cry.  I could have sworn I just rocked her to sleep singing a primary lullaby.  But, now, she's sassy.  She's bossy.  She's silly.  She's amazing.  She tells me every day that she's a 'pincess'.  She makes my life complete.  I'm so happy that I get to be her mommy.  She has changed my life.  I said a quiet prayer of thanks this morning that I get to have her in my life. 

Happy Birthday sweet Hazel Gayle. 

I’ll

I love you more than words can say.
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Jun 1, 2011

What the Wednesday!

 My Summer vacation started this week
*sigh*




I went to Roxberry this week 
To get my favorite green smoothie
at their nifty drive thru window
The balloon was still in the car
The girl in the window recognized me
We both laughed that it is still floating




My 10 year high school reunion is this year
Where did 10 years go?
It's weird because most days I still feel 18
I just have kids
And preschool
And student loans
And a house
Okay, those things don't make me feel 18




My mood
is directly correlated to how clean my house is
But I never remember that until it's really clean
It makes me so happy




I worry about a lot of things
But one of my biggest worries is Hazie
And how her life will be as she grows up
It makes me sad to think that she might get left out
Because of her allergies
Here is a great article about including kids with allergies
Read it if you know any kids with allergies
I have a plan
And that plan involves following her everywhere until she's 21
It's foolproof, no?




My sister, Haley
Graduates from high school tomorrow
She's awesome
Go, Haley!
And goVikings!
Then go Aggies while we're at it





It's June
Here we go again




On Sunday
I used my blender to make
green smoothies
salsa
and 
ice cream
Oh, how I love
My little blender that could





is beautiful, poised and, well, smart
She's lived through a nightmare
Yet she's the living her life as a survivor
Rather than a victim
I'm so glad for her
and wish her a happy, fearless life






Have a blissful Wednesday!


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